Last week a posed a question on my page asking "What is something you are most proud of?" I had many reply and it was seriously the most inspiring moment to see so many people from all walks of life participate in the facilitated question. Responses ranged from, "proud of being a mother, not giving up, being a kind person, graduating from school, or losing weight & maintaining it."
OUR cofounder Cristal added to the conversation saying,
"In life we get thrown many ups and downs; times where we feel if trying is even worth it, but I'm grateful that I didn't give up in LOVE. I am proud to say that even through the ups and downs my husband and I have made it through 8 years of building and knocking down rocks when thrown our way. We made it through four years of marriage with a beautiful daughter and a 2nd child on the way I'm proud that through all obstacles...I chose LOVE; to LOVE others as I love myself to see life grow before my eyes and continue to pour and grow in this thing called LOVE."
Then one of my mentees asked me "sis, what about you, what is something you're proud of." I eventually responded in part by saying helping to start this blog is something that I am incredibly proud to be a part of.... but it took me some time to really narrow that thing I pride myself (with God's grace) in accomplishing. The whole, giving opportunity to acknowledge yourself and your growth is something we at HERSTORY speak on and encourage in terms of self-love but here I am the facilitator...and I'm stuck!! Lol
THIS week I wanted to focus on WHY we get stuck.
Whether it be on our past, our hurt, our inability to see us for how God sees us...etc"
Perhaps you are a dreamer like me; incredibly ambitious or you have a LOT you want to accomplish in your life time but apart from the job, or seemingly unfavorable circumstances...you haven't been able to break-through?
I wrestled in my mind about this, and why it is so hard to affirm yourself...??
The moments I get stuck in life when I know a decision needs to be made is usually based on the value I hold of myself. Do I take that next step, do I do something I've never done...?
"When you know WHO you are, you know WHAT you want."
And in all transparency, maybe I'm still discovering who I am.. I say this knowing I am NOT what I've been through because for the longest time I spent years making decisions about what I need in life based on a victimized mentality.
That mentality told me every day, you're a good person, but expect the bad because you've been shaped by bad things. Rape was bad, and you didn't ask for it.sooo here on out...expect life to take without your permission. Which includes:
Your peace of mind
That mentality was needed to shake off in order to put on my truest identity.
I found that in Christ. I found that in a God who carried every burden and discarded every thought contrary to me being fearfully and wonderfully made.
It's with this NEW found identity I was able to lay the ground work for building and affirming my truest identity in a God who doesn't see me as rape, as abuse, as a Victim, or anything less than a QUEEN.
That whole conversation sparked a realization in me. The realization that "I am most proud of CHOOSING my truest self when life has tried to condition me to choose otherwise." Living for a King everyday, and as I completely ignore the tendencies to revert back to that weaker option, I am choosing to survive, because it takes strength in being a survivor.
So we ask you at HERSTORY... what is something YOU are most proud of?" We'd love to hear your feedback.
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.