This week's post didn't really have a theme, didn't really have any obvious inspiration to be quite honest. we are honestly still so humbled by the contributors we've had thus far but the weeks go on and content is always needed.
We, at Herstory never want to post just to be relevant and in your face. Sooo when the emphasis "writers block" kicks in I have to draw back a bit and remind myself who this is for.
This blog is a continuous open letter of REALness...the realities of survivor's stories are not all pretty and happily ever after. This is work. I'm still learning from my experiences of sexual abuse and the history that it's had in my life; more importantly, the legacy I WANT to have because of it.
So today, is a bit more of an ode to thankfulness and reflection for where we are now. To contribute her thoughts is our cofounder: Devin Marie.
"I'm thankful that it happened the way it did. The fact that a man I knew to trust in friendship became my attacker. It could have been worse, right..? But here I am CHOOSING to learn to trust again..
With gratitude I shout praises that I didn't give up on myself...I'm still HERE.. and to think there was a time when I was left empty, today, I'm reminded of what it's like to be full again.
I'm thankful for the self-love I've accumulated and STILL cultivating. Telling myself I'm beautiful right after I take my makeup off, and whine down for the day.
With gratitude I accept relationships into my life that cherish my time and presence. People that around me that aren't here to just take but give...
For these I'm thankful...and for so much more. I hear stories of the pain he or she caused you.. I hear stories of how much they hurt you, took advantaged, lied, and manipulated...I hear stories of how many times you've attempted to hurt yourself or others because pain is the only reality that makes sense.
I hear you, how bitter you sound, how angry you are...your bones heat up like coals in hell just at the thought of "them"... how they still have power over you like that night, or day it happened.
But let me tell you, you don't have to be buried with their sin.
YOU can and WILL be thankful too that it wasn't worse, that you are indeed still HERE. This is not your end. Please know, I know it's hard to be thankful for something so awful...but in the ugliness of my experience I am grateful I can share it with you, I'm hopeful to still make this world beautiful again. And if not the world, at least one or my own."
With love and gratitude,
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.