💗💕Have you ever been given a gift that you weren't quite sure if you were ready to receive? Or perhaps a gift you weren't expecting and suddenly...there you are, and there is your gift. Now...what are you going to do with it?
Some gifts don't come in packages, in fact, the gift that we are speaking on today is the gift of experience.
You faced that moment and even though you weren't "ready" for all that came with that experience, you're left to figure out what do next.
"I never EVER considered looking at my experience of sexual assault as a gift, because truth be told, this 'gift' was wrapped in a lot of pain, anger, confusion, bitterness and self-blame. Place this on the list of a Christmas white-elephant gone wrong. This can't be mine--right God?
I toiled with this for years. And I don't want to send the message that "suffering is equated to your worth or value as a person." This is your cross to bear. This is the test before the testimony; the messiness before the message. This is your experience, and you can respond any way you like.
As we consciously reflect on ways to be grateful amidst circumstances like sexual abuse, loss, and other such trials; we can all attest to the challenges we may face in the process.
I went from grieving my experience to appreciating who I was because of it. I am changed forever; but I am changed for all the best versions of who I am today. I am grateful that God I trusted me with the gift of gratitude inspite of what it took to get here.
In the process of becoming grateful for life again, I had to learn to be thankful for what didn't happen to me, and appreciate what I did have. Overtime, this process began to help me focus my perspective not only on the harsh reality of my pain, but through the lens of gratitude.
Yes, I was taken advantage of, but I was still able to continue to get my education that helped contextualize my experience.
Yes, I trusted an associate and tainted my views of relationships, but I have gained heathy relationships that prove hate wrong everyday.
Thoughts like these keep me focused on another reality I can choose to grow by affirming myself or suffocate by revisiting only the dark moments in my life.
Gratitude doesn't avoid the reality that bad things happen; instead, it leaves an open avenue of hope when getting through the very moments you thought were simply made to kill steal and destroy you.
This is your comeback story--and we're here to support you as you journey through it!
With love and solidarity,
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