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As we wrap up this month’s blog series “Making Peace with Your Past,” we wanted to encourage you with some lasting thoughts...
Making Peace with my past isn’t so much of trying to “get over” or “move forward” as quickly as possible. It may seem like that; or appear as if everyone is moving on better or without a care in the world. It may even seem like what happened to you was one big mistake...”maybe I was over-reacting,” or this stuff only happens in the movies; this couldn’t have happened to me. But it did happen, the pain creeps in and the pain of that realization can’t be ignored. You still have you to take care of inspite of it all.
From Devin Marie:
“I’ve had to allow God to gracefully interrupt my process of finding peace by ultimately BEING my peace.
When I didn’t surrender my problems or questions to God automatically, I tried to figure it out on my own. I lived in constant frustration of trying to FEEL BETTER, and get back to living MY life; but to no avail.
I felt like I was trying to beat this ticking time-bomb before it was too late. I felt being sexually assaulted and living with PTSD meant I had to fix myself before someone would truly love me. I self-sabotaged opportunities and relationships because I constantly used my pain as a crutch when things got rough.
Truth is—this pain was too much for everybody including myself. Surrendering what happened (which was completely out of my control) to the One is IN-control was my first step towards my peace. Letting go of temporary fixes and inviting Jesus into those spaces of brokenness helped me to get to where I am today. Not everyday is perfect. I sometimes have to catch my feelings, acknowledge them before they overwhelm me into making decisions that are not in my favor. As you continue your journey of healing; please know, there is no perfect day: there will be a process to get through the pain, but how you navigate that doesn’t have to be done alone. God CAN what we can’t, all we have to do is invite Him in...♥️
With love and solidarity,
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