Doctors Call this symptoms Of post tramatic stress, others say "The things that make you tick, or set you off"
When healing from experiences Of immense trauma one must first address these triggers first hand. Confront The post trauma (secondary pain) helps understand The pain from The first trauma(initial pain).
After i was raped there were certain triggers that would literally send me Back in sheer pánic mode: i would loose all sense Of where i was, The Day And time....i was hit with a phycological pain affiliated with my Past i could Swear It was happening all over again.
I needed to find peace in those moments Of fear And torment, I needed to learn How to adapt into a world i could not trust after what happenned to me.
God aligned someone on my path who was a fellow actor. He taught me a lesson one of his acting coaches taught me that literally made sense...something clicked and the hours of therapy and time spent in doctor's offices finally came together and I felt I got my strength back.
He told me to close my eyes, imagine a time and place when I was really happy, dig deep, so far back that you reimagine the moment and the textures of that "scene" in your head. He then instructed me to describe this place(to myself) from what I was wearing to what the place smelled and looked like (channeling and connecting all of my senses).
He allowed me to meditate with this image for as long as I needed to...asking me how I felt, listening to my body relax in that moment.
After some time to myself he asked me to place my hand over my heart..."feel the rhythm of your heart, it's pulsing waves softly touch your chest like ocean waves to a calming shore.....now open."
Upon opening my eyes, my hand was still left over my chest. He said "now whenever you feel like your peace is being threatened by anxiety, fear, doubt, pain, etc place your hand over your chest, feel your heart beat, the same heart that beat in the chest of that innocent little girl who was free, and happy...before she ever met that pain or was triggered by it."
What a profound moment for me, and I trusted that God had orchestrated from the very beginning. That interaction changed the dynamic in which I chose to see the world around me; for that, I am grateful.
The great thing is, I have access to that moment as often or as little as I need. So with that, I encourage you like that great man once did to reintroduce yourself to that child within, before you ever knew the world to thrust its relentless sting upon your life.
Find that child, and never let him/her go...💗
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